A/N:: Hey. Haven't updated in a while for my other fics but i had
this idea on Katsuya and his Mommy.
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Okay. So, this is a One-shot (?) about Katsuya and his Mommy-dearest
Summary: This is flashbacks of Katsuya's childhood with his Okaa-san.
Abusive, hints of
yaoi-ness (Seto/Katsuya), okaa-san bashing...(Visit my site PLEASE!!!
web url in profile. a seto/jou story)
Okaa-San, dearest
I love you Katsuya
Don't you love your Okaa-san?
katsuya...
Katsuya...
Okaa-san loves you ...Katsuya
My little boy
I hate you ... katsuya
just like that bastard
katsuya
katsuya
katsuya...
Okaa-san loves her little Katsuya
Katsuya pov.
~January 9~
My birthday is soon! I am excited. I hope I get a bike,
then I can ride it with shizuka-chan. Shizuka got one for her birthday and a big pink cake too! I want a cake with dragons
on it and chocolate! Shizuka is really smart! she knows lots things I don't. I am not real good at school. I don't know
why. Okaa-san always tells me to do better but I can't. I try hard though! I just can't do it though. I always think of other
things like playing in the sand box or what we are going to do in gym. I don't like making Okaa-san mad, I don't like it when
she is mad. Like that one time when I was in the sand box and a big mean kid told me to get out. I didn't want to get out
cause' I was their first! So, I hit him! real hard too! he cried and ran off. Okaa-san was really mad. She took me home and
put me in my room and yelled real loud at me. I don't like it when someone yells, especially at me. I also
don't like it when I get hit. Okaa-san is real mad. Her face was red. You like to hit? Do you like how it feels? I don't
like it. I don't like it! Okaa-san hits me. My face is red from my tears and Okaa-san's slaps. I hiccup and say I'm
sorry! I felt sad that I hit the kid then. okaa-san told me to shut up and sit on my bed and not make a sound. So, I
sat there for a real long time! I got tired though and fell asleep.
I woke up when something hard hit my cheek. I moved away startled. Opening my eyes I saw Otou-san. He looked real mad. He
asked me if I hit a kid today. I gulped and nodded my head. He grabbed my shirt and shook me, screaming at me that I was stupid
and couldn't do that. I know that. Okaa-san already told me. I am sorry that I did. I wish I never did that. Otou-san
stops screaming at me and lets me go, falling back to my bed. He tells me I can stay in here for the rest of the night and
think about what I did.
I hear my family getting ready for dinner. I pop my head outside my door and see OKaa-san. I ask if I can come out for dinner
now. Okaa-san ignores me and keeps setting up the table. I notice only three plates. She places the last plate on the table
and snaps her head up looking at me. She yells at me to get back in my room, stay there, no dinner for you tonight, think
about what you did.
Sitting on my bed, crying, I know what I did was wrong. I won't hit again. I'm sorry ...
~January 15~
School today. I don't like school. Did
I tell you that already? I don't have any friends at school. I really don't like those three boys too. They are really mean
to me. Always, picking on me! Today, I got Okaa-san really mad at me. It wasn't my fault though! Those three boys broke
a window and told the teacher I did. No one in class really likes me. No one helped me. I told the teacher it wasn't me. That
those boys did it. I don't think the teachers likes me. She called me a liar. I didn't lie though. why won't she believe me.
I wasn't mean to teacher. Why won't she believe me.
Okaa-san was called. She had to come to school and
talk to the principle. When she came out she looked really mad. I got really scared. I don't like it when Okaa-san looks
at me like this. She takes me home. Not saying a word in the car. Until we got home.
I lay underneath my covers crying.
Okaa-san hit me really hard. My tummy hurts now. I told her I didn't do it. Okaa-san called me a liar like teacher.
Okaa-san slapped me really hard. My cheek hurts too. I don't understand why no one believes me. Okaa-san called me mean names.
She told me she hates me. That we have to pay for the window. That I was a ungrateful bastard ...just like otou-san. Okaa-san
didn't let me eat dinner with the family tonight. I was given a sandwich. Okaa-san told me I can't eat dinner with family
unless I confessed about the window. I didn't do it though. If I said I did it ... then I really would be a liar.
~January 17~
I didn't want to make
Okaa-san even more mad at me. Only a few days after the window...something bad happened again. I had a really bad dream and
I ... I accidentally wet my bed. Okaa-san really gets mad when I wet my bed. Last time Okaa-san hit me a lot of times. I shuffle
in my blankets in the corner of my room crying. I don't want to tell Okaa-san. I don't want to get yelled at. When Shizuka
wets her bed, Okaa-san kisses her and tells her its alright. Don't worry about it. She hold hers and tells her she loves her
and will protect her. Why won't Okaa-san say though's words to me? I try to be a good boy for Okaa-san.
I guess I was crying really loud
because Okaa-san came into my room. Telling me to shut up. That I woke her up. Not happy... Okaa-san looks at my bed and see's
the wet stain. WHAT! AGAIN! MORE WORK! LITTLE BASTARD! ALWAYS MORE WORK! Okaa-san walks over to me and grabs my hair and lifts
my face up. It's red and puffy from the tears. She slaps me and yells at me. She grabs the sheets off the bed and throws them
at me. Okaa-san tells me to stop crying ... clean it up myself. Better not hear you ... or ELSE! Okaa-san leaves back to bed.
I still lay on the floor crying ... I am still scared from that dream.
~January 20~
I've been feeling
a weird feeling lately. Like when your in a dark room all by yourself with no on there. You feel like you need someone to
be with you but there isn't. your going to go crazy if you don't have anyone there to hold you. tell you its alright. I don't
like it. it feels scary and makes me really sad. I feel sad a lot. I don't like that feeling. It doesn't feel good. My birthday
is in 5 days. I am making a birthday list. I hope I get a bike. Its on the top of my list. I have a bike, shoes (my old ones
have holes in them now), and a dragon lord game (I can play it on shizuka's game system she got from her last birthday).
I know not to ask for much or Okaa-san will get mad. Last Birthday she yelled asking me if I think I deserved such gifts.
I don't remember anything else from my last birthday only I was really sad.
Okaa-san is doing dishes.
I walk over to her. I held up my list. She ignores me. I put it next to her. She looks over at it then goes back over to washing
dishes.
Shizuka for her birthday!
she had a big birthday party! she invited her friends and it was fun. I like shizuka. She is the only one really nice to me.
Her party was so great though! really fun! their was balloons and a clown! a big cake! shizuka always gets lots of presents.
More then I get. Okaa-san got really mad when I asked her why. She hit me again and yelled more. Okaa-san
says that my birthday is in the month where they have to pay taxes and can't spend a lot on me.
~January 24~
Tomorrow is my birthday. I can't wait. I am excited!
I hope there will be a cake, a bike, and balloons! ...maybe a clown just like Shizuka's birthday! At school we got our
test back. I didn't do good. Okaa-san will be mad. I don't want to show her. If I don't though she will get more mad. I did
it once and Okaa-san got super mad. She hit me a lot and it left weird colors on me. called my mean names. I didn't do
it ever.
At home I got scared. Okaa-san didn't
seem in a good mood. I had to give Okaa-san the test though. When she saw it, I could see her eyes harden and her face go
red. She yelled calling me a stupid child. I was going to grow up to be trash like otou-san. I told her if otou-san was trash
then why was she married to him. she got really mad. she hit me really hard. but it wasn't like before. it hurt more. she
usually used her palm but today she used her fist. she yelled at me. DON'T TALK BACK TO ME YOU LITTLE BASTARD! JUST LIKE OTOU-SAN!
I HATE....hate...HATE YOU! Okaa-san hit my lots of times. Shizuka was in her room and came out at my cry's. She yelled at
Okaa-san to stop hurting me. Okaa-san grew more mad and hit me more. My body really hurt when Okaa-san calmed down. She told
me to go to my room and stay there. I don't think I will have a happy birthday.
~January 25~
Happy Birthday to me...
When it's shizuka's
birthday there is usually a balloon and one present for her to open in the morning. I was real excited! I never had a balloon
or present to open in the morning. I always wanted one. Maybe this time I would get one! I woke up and got dressed real quick.
I ran into the kitchen hoping to see a big balloon or present. nothing. I lowered my eyes.
Shizuka wished me a
happy birthday. I don't feel happy though. School fun wasn't happy either. I got in a argument with teacher. I had to stay
in during recess. I hoped teacher wouldn't call Okaa-san.
Today, must be lucky!
Okaa-san didn't know about my argument at school. Teacher must have forgotten. When Otou-san came home. I got to open presents.
I got a color book and crayons. I must have looked disappointed because Okaa-san got mad. She yelled at me. YOU DON'T
LIKE YOUR PRESENT. SUCH A UNGREATFUL CHILD. THINK YOU DESERVE MORE. YOU STUPID LITTLE BASTARD. I didn't get to eat a piece
of cake. I was in my bedroom. put to sleep. Okaa-san gave my color book to Shizuka.
~October 5~
Last months have been
good. I haven't got Okaa-san mad lately.But at the park today ...
I noticed something. I was playing with some boys who were joking
about girls and their chest. I don't find girls chest interesting. I told them too. They looked at my funny and laughed. called
me names I haven't heard before. poof. fag. fairy. I knew what a fairy was. It was those little magical things that glowed
and had pretty wings. a boy came up close to me and asked if I thought he was cute. he didn't look ugly. I told him. he laughed
and asked if I wanted to kiss him. I never kissed anyone before. he got close to my face and quickly pressed his lips to mine.
it felt weird. a good feeling though. I got butterfly's and smiled. I felt happy. the boys laughed and made some jokes. I
was laughing. it was fun. another boy came over and asked if he could kiss me. I told him okay. since the last one was fun.
he leant foreword but before he could kiss me I was jerked up. I turned and saw okaa-san. she was silent as she took me away.
I got scared. did I do something bad?
I guess I did
do something bad. Okaa-san hit me. a lot! more then ever! calling me mean names. YOU LIKE BOYS! FAG! FAG! FAG! LITTLE
BITCH! BASTARD! I HATE YOU! I didn't think okaa-san would stop hitting me. she told me if I ever did 'that' again.
I would be in big trouble. when otou-san got home. okaa-san yelled at him about what happened and other things. otou-san got
mad and hit her. she yelled and he screamed. they got in a big fight.
~December 12~
Something bad happened today.
Okaa-san and Shizuka put all their things in boxes. They were going away. live somewhere else. I asked Okaa-san why. She glared
at me and told me not to talk to her. not my child. not your child. I hate you.
you hate me. hate...hate..
Otou-san was angry and
yelled at Okaa-san as she packed. They screamed a lot. OKaa-san grabbed Shizuka's hand and walked out of the apartment. I
didn't want shizuka to leave. I ran after Okaa-san tugging on her skirt asking her if I could come. She slapped my hand away
and yelled at me to get away from her. don't want you. little bastard. she put shizuka in her car. I
cried begging her not to go. I didn't want shizuka to leave. Okaa-san looked at me and told me to go away. Okaa-san started
her car. I cried more. I didn't want to be alone. I chased at their car. I ran as fast as I could. I just wasn't fast enough....
~Present~
Living with Otou-san
hasn't been that bad. He can be mean but he can also be alright. I had to get a job to support him. After Okaa-san left Otou-san
started to go out more. drink more. hit more... I came to realize that I hate Okaa-san. I hate HATE her. I wish she died at
times. Shizuka got sick. I went to see her but Okaa-san got mad. I finally yelled at her.
Bitch! I hate you! FUCKING BITCH! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I FUCKING
HATE YOU!!!
It made me happy. I also got
friends now. They are nice. they support me. They don't hit me. I also have a crush even though he is really mean to me. but
he notices me. it makes me happy. he reminds me of okaa-san sometimes and it scares me. he is really pretty. I want to kiss
him. I am scared he might get mad though. so I didn't until ... this one night. but HE kissed ME! I was surprised. I didn't
think anyone would really like me like that ever. He kissed me a lot. I liked it. He held me too. I liked that. I like being
held. love...
'Katsuya,
I love you' he whispers to me. I look at him. 'Please, don't call my katsuya. Jou is fine" I whisper. He tightens his grip
on me 'Why'? "Because SHE called me that! That woman gave me that name. I don't want it" I relax in his hold. 'Okay, puppy'
he kisses my cheek. I smile.
'I love you Seto. With you...I'm happy"
The End ...
0_o ...man this turned out different then I planned. Not that
good...~_~ oh well. well review tell me if you liked it or not. kinda corny I know. ^_^ hehehe
